This week we’ve been facing a new challenge, Pinky’s First Fever, nearly reaching 105 degrees. She’s been sick before, but mainly because she was teething; and with all eight teeth coming in she never had a fever, just a really runny nose.
Daddy and I experienced the pain, heartache and helplessness parents feel when they’re not able to take their baby’s illness away. So far it’s been four sleepless nights of caring for our little girl. We’ve been taking turns holding her, but for the most part, she wants Mama! These past few days have been difficult. However, they have also made our family stronger. They’ve taught us to be patient and calm during the storm. These past few nights have also brought me back to our first nights at home with Pinky. When she fist came home, I was afraid to lay her down, so she slept on my chest, and Daddy’s too. Since she’s been sick Pinky has been sleeping on my chest or cuddled up next to me. All I could think of was that no matter how much older she gets she’ll always be my baby, the one I gave birth to, the one I held in my arms and never wanted to let go when she came home. I still don’t want to let her go and I’ll hold on as long as I can.
Daddy and I experienced seeing our baby sick for the very first time and we were surprised at how naturally our maternal instincts kicked in. I guess it’s on of those things where, “you just know what to do”, especially when it’s your child”s health that’s at stake. It felt good to know that Pinky could trusts us to take care of her. She didn’t understand at first that what we were doing (I.e. Suctionting her nose, taking her temp) wasn’t because we wanted to hurt her, but because we wanted her to get better. She eventually gave in and allowed us to care for her. Not to say that there still aren’t times she cries, wines, throws her head back and refuses to eat.
Now, I’m sitting in the back seat with her while Daddy drives us to urgent care. She’s sleeping peacefully and I just pray that things start looking up for her from here. We’ll keep you posted!